I wish I was smarter and could pass college level courses, it really holds me back from having any sort of career success in life. Unless one really get’s lucky, there is just not much chance of having a good job without college education and degree in something.
I requested my high school transcripts and I really didn’t do well and struggled. I did the best I could and it wasn’t from a lack of trying, I just could not keep up with the pace and always fell behind, and the school didn’t have the supports necessary for students like me, so we just languished and didn’t really receive an education that would prepare us for college.
I did go to college from high school, but only lasted 1 semester, most of the classes were dropped at the midterm point because there was no mathematical way I could pass because I was doing so poorly, again could not keep up with the class, and my work was not college level and the instructors all suggested I drop out before having to receive a grade, so I did.
I did pass 1 class at a college in 2004, got an A in it, it was an emergency first responder class, a pre-requisite for the emergency medical tech program, but I moved to Canada, so never entered the tech program.
Unfortunately paramedic is not an option for me in BC, I cannot pass the physical to even get into it because it requires healthy emotional, physical and mental health, and well I am not healthy enough to pass, its a young persons career, not one you enter at 35.
I was looking into Psychiatric Nursing as it really interests me, however it requires a bunch of grade 12 classes I don’t have so would need to take and upgrade but I am not sure I can pass a grade 12 math class, English should be okay, but math really isn’t something I am good at. Well I take that back, I am good at basic math addition, subtraction, multiplication, division, and percentages.
My struggles start with fractions, algebra, geometry and so on. I just don’t get it, and I spent hours on math in high school, had tutors, and still didn’t pass 1 math class in high school, I received what they called credit, no letter grade, just a credit so I could graduate.
I feel stupid because I can’t pass these classes, I have a poor memory and concentration, and the only way I learn is through repetition and doing, any other way, and I fail miserably.
I can’t survive life on 11 or 12 per hour, that won’t even rent an apartment anymore, let alone allow any sort of freedom in life. I want a career I can feel good about, not these dead end jobs with no future that benefit nobody but wealthy investors over sea’s.
I don’t know why I had to be born so stupid.