If we cut the only thing we have that is a luxury, internet we could only save 50 per month.
The rest of our monthly exspenses are fixed and cannot be reduced.
Insurance (car, tenants) 170
Food (75 per week) 300 per month
Misc debt- 750
Working income – 1,900
When we still have our disability top up as neither of us can work full-time due to disability and health issues we do okay our income is 22 more then what goes out.
The misc debt will be paid off within 48 months.
I just really am getting worse and more stressed, I know this feeling from the past, and I feel like I am going to end up so mentally drained and stressed that I will try to end my life again, I have no plans to at this moment, but I know how the spiral starts and what leads to the point where the attempt is made.
I am trying to stop from getting that far from reading books and trying new things to relax and deal with the stress.
I cannot escape the stress, work is even stressful, I am prone to heat related health issues, and they are forecasting 40 degrees over the weeend, work at no a/c and at those temps, I have ended up in the hospital before several times, my body because of medications I am on, doesn’t cool itself properly.
My employer is just too cheap to replace the broken a/c unit as its 4,000 to do so and well he will not spend money on his business to fix or improve things.
The stress from today was trying to figure out how to pay for DBT, I need 700 per month for 26 weeks, and I have no idea how to do it, money is the only thing keeping me from receiving the treatment that I need.
Mental health isn’t treated like a health issue, so the government doesn’t like to fund it.