I read through a medical evaluation that I had done when I was 5 years old in 1984, so yes a very long time ago. The psychiatrist asked for a copy, so I dug it out and had never really read it before in much detail.
The person doing the assessment at the time may as well have been a psychic as everything mentioned in that assessment is spot on with what has happened in my life.
It was mostly geared around academics and doing well in school. Basically boiled down to 2 things:
- If I was placed into special education, I would likely do well in school and have a moderate to high chance at success in academics and life.
- If I was not placed in special education, I would have a poor to low chance at academic success and likely develop phobias when it came to school and learning.
I went through most of my school career in normal classes which I did not do well in, and barely passed through them, I retained very little knowledge from my education in school, and some teachers just passed me to be nice so I wasn’t held back.
I fell behind in school constantly, and was just despite putting everything I had towards doing well, just didn’t and the teachers lacked the time and resources I needed in order to learn the material.
The cause of these issues in regards to learning, is linked to having streptococcus meningitis as an infant. At 3 weeks old, I was diagnosed with it, and spent another 3 weeks in the hospital recovering.
In 1984 the likely diagnoses (likely being the report writers word) attention deficit with learning disability. They did an IQ test in 1984 and at the time, I scored 85 which from what I can tell is considering below average on nearly every scale used.
I am still to this day very slow in learning and mastering material, and when I have taken college courses, I fall behind very quickly as I can’t learn as fast as is expected, and there is a lack of resources and time for me to learn in that kind of environment, and this is also why I likely do very poorly in jobs because companies expect me to learn the job faster then I possibly can.
I frankly don’t think I ever had any chance at a good life.