Positive people grate my nerves, its one thing to have a positive outlook if it is a rational outlook and realistic outlook, however sometimes there are no realistic and achievable solutions to something.
I am not employable at this point in life, I have no skills of use to an employer, I have grade 12 education and nothing beyond that. All of my work experience aside from my high school job has been in 2 industries hotel and airline, neither of which I gained any useful transferable skills.
I need more education and work training, however I cannot afford it, realistically I cannot pay for it out of pocket, the British Columbia gov’t says I cannot get any student aid until I pay 1 full year myself without any assistance, and it has to be full-time. This is not realistic.
I am not on EI, have never been on EI and do not and will never get EI as I am on disability, so there are few options for retraining.
Disability does offer some funds for job training for short term training, however there is a big catch, you have to be a single parent, I am neither single nor a parent so not an option.
I cannot get loans from a bank as I don’t have credit, as I have too low of income to qualify for credit, so not an option.
I applied for scholarships at the school through financial aid but did not get awarded any, between my age (37) no academic history of any standing in recent years, and well my high school days were a struggle, so no surprise I can’t find scholarships.
Because I have US Citizenship as well, I tried to also go to school in WA state, but because I don’t live in the US, I would be considered for tuition purposes a foreign student and the foreign student tuition rate is more then I make in a year, so no doable.
I went to a gov’t sponsored work center, and their advice was to get training in something and that I am not considered employable, ditto with disability they also consider me unemployable.
I apply for jobs on both sides of the border all the time, I never get interviews, so no interviews means no chance at a job, but again what can I offer any employer?
I am out of idea’s and do not have the means nor resources to achieve anything, and few people can come back from the bottom depths alone with no support, those who have come back almost always say they had support and assistance of others.
I don’t even have access to proper medical care because our healthcare system is so screwed up they don’t consider mental health a true problem and just brush you to the side, especially if your an adult over 25, youths in the 18-25 range have far more options, but suppose the gov’t figures its better to get youths help as they have time to achieve things in life, by the time your pushing 40, your just not worth anything anymore it seems.
And yes I could use extensive therapy, however its not within my ability to pay, so its not something I can access, and its not something our gov’t healthcare will even pay for.